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Day 9-side effects

I have finished the first week of medications. ┬áMost of the side effects have been mild. Insomnia and nausea have really been it. Haven’t seen any weight gain from the steroids yet, but I know it’s coming. I have felt the irritability, but I have tried to keep it at bay as much as possible. I do seem to cry super easy and just thinking about the changes if my life to come will set me off. I try not to think about anything. But when your loved ones ask, you want to let them in a little. Cause you[......]

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Day 3-Strength?

I keep getting told how strong I am. That I’m the strongest person someone knows. Do they even know me? Do they see beyond the shell that I carry for the outside world? I am a nervous shattered wreck inside. I’m just very skilled at hiding it from everyone but a few select people. I was even able to avoid breaking down in front of Jeff until last night, when I finally admitted I was scared. I am not strong. I am good at disguises. You don’t see what happens once I close my front door. You don’t[......]

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